Whatever Happened to Poor Cousin Boo Ray?
A Fractured Southern Gothic Tale
Aunt Tilly drove her beat up old Dodge hell bent pell-mell from Buford County, Mississippi, to New Orleans that drizzly evening in the mid sixties. I guess she had to escape her sweltering moldy family and explosive Uncle Model T before her rocker totally off tracked.
Cousin Boo Ray played quietly with his hot wheels in the back seat. I was all of sixteen years old, with my drivers license and white lipstick. Aunt Tilly let me drive until I scared the holy shit out of her. Then I was demoted to shotgun. Tilly chained smoked Lucky Strikes, gripped the stirring wheel with fingers thin as nails, while jibber jabbering under her breath. She was skeleton thin before it was chic to be afflicted with anorexia. Ahead of her time. She checked us into the Airline Highway Motelarama after midnight.
From the dingy room-smelling of human secretions-she phoned my mother to tell her that I was safe, not to worry. Then hung up on Mama when the phone began to sizzle. We all three slept in one crappy bed. Cousin Boo Ray tossed and kicked. I awoke disoriented, with Aunt Tilly hitting me. She apologized after I shook her, "Sorry, I thought you were Model T."
The next day was a number ten on the weather scale. A refreshing crisp of autumn in the air. I was about to pee my pants with excitement. I had only been to New Orleans once before, to attend a Billy Graham revival meeting with my fanatical Christian parents.
After cafe au lait and beignets Aunt Tilly bought me a padded push up bra for my breast buds. I didnt have much to push up but the bra had flattering foam rubber.
At Ponchatrain Beach Amusement Park we waited in line to board the Zephyr. Aunt Tilly said, "This is a very old roller coaster, I hope that they have replaced all the rotten boards" Sitting in the car with Cousin Boo Ray in the middle we jerked, ratcheting skyward, up a creaky ramp. "Hold your arms up," Tilly ordered when we reached the top. I screamed with delight. Falling, falling. Zooming down.
Boo Ray didnt know what to expect. He was overwhelmed by the force of gravity. After that he was broken. I think that terrifying roller coaster ride was the straw that broke the camels psyche. Too many nights crouching, trembling, under the bed while Tilly and Model T hammered and degraded each other.
In this picture you can see him before and after. I only visited him once at Whitfield, Mississippi State Hospital for Mental Diseases. He did not even know that I was there. Did not acknowledge my gift of Whitman's chocolates in the stunning box.
New Orleans was a thrilling day for me, super cool Aunt Tilly bought me a Mai Tai in a pagan idol glass at the Bali Hai Restaurant and Lounge. I was dazzled by the sophistication of the lounge decor. Back then, in New Orleans, they did not check ID, except for when it was close to election time. And the bra and cigarette made me look older. Tilly got tipsy and so did I.
Back home I hid the bra and pagan idol glass in the back of my closet with the birthday present carton of cigarettes that my Airman boy friend had given me. I began scheming about how I would move to New Orleans after graduating high school.
We did not notice that Cousin Boo Ray was broken until after we got home; and after we faced the family furor fireworks. He always was a quiet boy.
Cousin Boo Ray played quietly with his hot wheels in the back seat. I was all of sixteen years old, with my drivers license and white lipstick. Aunt Tilly let me drive until I scared the holy shit out of her. Then I was demoted to shotgun. Tilly chained smoked Lucky Strikes, gripped the stirring wheel with fingers thin as nails, while jibber jabbering under her breath. She was skeleton thin before it was chic to be afflicted with anorexia. Ahead of her time. She checked us into the Airline Highway Motelarama after midnight.
From the dingy room-smelling of human secretions-she phoned my mother to tell her that I was safe, not to worry. Then hung up on Mama when the phone began to sizzle. We all three slept in one crappy bed. Cousin Boo Ray tossed and kicked. I awoke disoriented, with Aunt Tilly hitting me. She apologized after I shook her, "Sorry, I thought you were Model T."
The next day was a number ten on the weather scale. A refreshing crisp of autumn in the air. I was about to pee my pants with excitement. I had only been to New Orleans once before, to attend a Billy Graham revival meeting with my fanatical Christian parents.
After cafe au lait and beignets Aunt Tilly bought me a padded push up bra for my breast buds. I didnt have much to push up but the bra had flattering foam rubber.
At Ponchatrain Beach Amusement Park we waited in line to board the Zephyr. Aunt Tilly said, "This is a very old roller coaster, I hope that they have replaced all the rotten boards" Sitting in the car with Cousin Boo Ray in the middle we jerked, ratcheting skyward, up a creaky ramp. "Hold your arms up," Tilly ordered when we reached the top. I screamed with delight. Falling, falling. Zooming down.
Boo Ray didnt know what to expect. He was overwhelmed by the force of gravity. After that he was broken. I think that terrifying roller coaster ride was the straw that broke the camels psyche. Too many nights crouching, trembling, under the bed while Tilly and Model T hammered and degraded each other.
In this picture you can see him before and after. I only visited him once at Whitfield, Mississippi State Hospital for Mental Diseases. He did not even know that I was there. Did not acknowledge my gift of Whitman's chocolates in the stunning box.
New Orleans was a thrilling day for me, super cool Aunt Tilly bought me a Mai Tai in a pagan idol glass at the Bali Hai Restaurant and Lounge. I was dazzled by the sophistication of the lounge decor. Back then, in New Orleans, they did not check ID, except for when it was close to election time. And the bra and cigarette made me look older. Tilly got tipsy and so did I.
Back home I hid the bra and pagan idol glass in the back of my closet with the birthday present carton of cigarettes that my Airman boy friend had given me. I began scheming about how I would move to New Orleans after graduating high school.
We did not notice that Cousin Boo Ray was broken until after we got home; and after we faced the family furor fireworks. He always was a quiet boy.
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